I can't take anymore.
MiserableSo I got dumped by my true love, and I don't know what to do anymore. I want to be selfish. I want to say "You love me and I love you; we're supposed to be together so please just stay by my side." But you know what? I can't. Because he was stressed out, and I could've killed him.
How could I want to subject him to that?! How could I say "I don't care what happens, I just want to be with you."?! My heart hurts. My head hurts. Every inch of my body hurts. And my head is screaming "Just die in your sleep."
But I can't. That'd "break my promise". God damn it all to hell, forget that! I'm tearing myself up inside and soon there's not going to be anything left at all!
I don't know what hurts the most:
Knowing someone else will hold him.
Knowing that he was the only thing to bring me true happiness in the world.
Knowing that I had happiness, he took it away, and I'll never see it again.
Or knowing that I'm doomed to think about him, cry over him, miss his smile, his touch, his eyes, his voice, his scent, and his laugh for the rest of my f*cking life!
I'm a horrible person, and no one seems to get that! I'm tired of trying to convince you people! What do I have to do?! Stab you?! After everything I've said, done, and thought about, you all still think I'm a role model? That I'm a good person?!
FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, NOOO!
I hate myself. Everything. There's not one thing I like about myself or my life. Nothing is worth it. Nothing.
Nothing. Yet I have to live this way until he breaks his promise. I'm surprised I lasted as long as I did. But life just doesn't seem worth it anymore. I've done nothing but cry for these past 16 years. Except for those heavenly five months before I knew his other feelings. Five months of happiness.
And it's all gone.
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"If you take [a copy of] the Christian Bible and put it out in the wind and the rain, soon the paper on which the words are printed will disintegrate and the words will be gone. Our bible IS the wind and the rain." --Wicca
Sorry, was hacked
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"If you take [a copy of] the Christian Bible and put it out in the wind and the rain, soon the paper on which the words are printed will disintegrate and the words will be gone. Our bible IS the wind and the rain." --Wicca
Can you think of a song that reminds you of me? I'm trying to put together a playlist. ^_^
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"If you take [a copy of] the Christian Bible and put it out in the wind and the rain, soon the paper on which the words are printed will disintegrate and the words will be gone. Our bible IS the wind and the rain." --Wicca
Total Drama Island on tonight!
P.S:Sasuke isn't gay!
Sorry,I just had to say that
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"You better come up with a smarter way to kill it,or else...Bang."
P.S: Sasuke is gay! Go on youtube and search "SasuNaru Love Confession". Masashi Kishimoto actually aired live on Japan radio, a love confession from Sasuke! XD So yep; he's gay =]
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I'm falling down; my world is ending. Baby, I'm disappearing but I'm going out with a BANG.
But we'll just have to wait and see won't we?
I hope you had fun at the mall. The mall where I live is where my mom used to work until she retired almost 8-9 years ago. She worked in the shoe department.
Anyway,I just want to say hi and hope to meet and hear from you again.
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"You better come up with a smarter way to kill it,or else...Bang."
Yes, I suppose I had fun at the mall. I ran into my psycho ex boyfriend though, and I had to run from him, but besides that everything was ok.
I hope to see you and your friends again too. ^_^ It was nice talking to you guys at the Death Note Movie. =]
P.S: Never really did catch your guys' name...-_-' My name is Kendra; my best friend's name is DJ and the boy sitting next to him at the movies was Andy.
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I'm falling down; my world is ending. Baby, I'm disappearing but I'm going out with a BANG.
( ='.'= ) This is Bunny. Put him on your sig and help him to world
( ")_(" ) domination!
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Anthony Dejsus
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